Christmas was a bright blessing this year... it really always has been. My favorite moment was when the kids watched each other open the gifts they picked out for each other. So sweet when Molly wrapped her arms around Ellie in that big sister hug. And Ellie was so excited to watch Molly open the gifts she had selected. Proud Mamma moments for me. Their giving hearts and eagerness to please one another amidst the constant battles... moments I just seal away in my heart.
It's been a rough year. I lost my dad this year, and my mom passed 2 years ago... Christmas was different. Certain carols had me in tears, comments from the back seat would just send me into weepy mode... "Mamma, I miss Bampa." So do I, baby. So do I. I miss his laugh... his belly laugh. Morgan has that laugh. I'm so glad. I miss his humor... that fart machine. I miss his giving heart. Always fair to everyone of his kids. O! I MISS HIM!! It hurts so much at times. It is bittersweet to remember all the good stuff... it just reminds you that he's gone. But I am so very thankful that I have the hope of a promise. You see, he prayed for salvation two days before he passed. He made it. That beautiful sun-shiney September day... he went HOME. He sat at Jesus feet, he ran in the fields, he saw his friends and family... His tears were wiped away by God Himself and he was wrapped up in God's embrace. All his life, I know God called him. I'm so thankful he answered that call.
It's been a hard year but a good year. I truly look forward to 2015. More good to come. More uphill climbs, but all with Jesus so I can trust it will be good.
James 1:17 For every good gift and every perfect gift comes from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with Whom there is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
I am so glad that God is constant. We change our minds and hearts like the wind blows, but He is steady, unchanging.
